Drained

Again.
Things don’t go as wished. Damn!
I thought I had found it, I thought I stood a chance, but somehow it doesn’t seem to belong to me.
Am I expecting too much? Keep on asking myself again and again.
Don’t I deserve something good?
People say I should think the other way round; saying that there are other better things which are meant for me, losing the present earning the future.
But how could I? After so many disappointments.
I am really tired. Tired with all this shit.
Fed up.
Hate it.
Everything.
Really feel like scattering everything.
Life sucks. Sucking out every single drop of blood and tear from within me.